Do you ever feel like you’re in the midst of a season where you don’t feel like God is moving in your life? BUT THEN you get to the otherside of the season and you see that God HAS BEEN MOVING the entire time — that He was writing your story and that His hand was clearly evident in the way things were orchestrated.
There’s a song called “Waymaker” (some of the lyrics are below). These lyrics have summed up this past season I have been walking through, and I want to share with you why in hopes to encourage you.
“Even when I don’t see it, You’re working
Even when I don’t feel it, You’re working
You never stop, You never stop working”
Let me take you back to about two years ago. I had recently graduated from graduate school and was working for an organization. To make a long story short, I was not happy in that job. I felt that God had more for me. I felt my talents and gifts He had given me weren’t being used. I felt confused and wondered why God would put me in such a job (He obviously wanted me to learn something).
About 9 months into the job, I found out that I was being let go due to budgetary cuts. I immediately lost my health benefits (mind you I was walking through some major health issues at the time) and a constant source of income. I wasn’t sure how I was going to pay for my medical issues or how I was going to continue to live on my own.
Well, little did I know, God was working on my behalf behind the scenes. At that time (and I still am), part of a home group for Returned Global Workers. The Minister of Missionary Care knew I was looking for a job and he approached me about coming to work with him as the Missionary Care Associate. It sounded like an amazing opportunity but there was one catch — it was part time. What about benefits? How is that supposed to pay for a single woman living in Houston? But God gave me the peace and affirmed that I was to take the job. So, I did.
However, the question still remained. How was I supposed to afford housing? Again, little did I know there was an amazing coworker of mine that would soon open her house up to me. She has the Spirit of God on her life and said “yes” when God said for me to live with her. I have never been so thankful! She let someone she hardly knew move into her house and let me tell you…2020 was so much better because I got to know her.
Then comes the health issues. I was having unresolved issues and wasn’t able to see doctors and get the tests done I needed. I simply couldn’t afford it. But by the grace of God, a couple of different times I anonymously received money to get those tests done. There is no way I could ever thank these friends and the way God worked through them in that time of need.
Then COVID-19 hit. People were losing jobs and organizations were losing business. I started to doubt God and wondered how I would ever get a full-time job and benefits in the state of our country. I conveniently forgot that God works with the impossible.
God was moving and working when I couldn’t see it. About 11 months after I started, I got the news that they were making my position FULL TIME. What?! In the midst of what seemed impossible, God came through. He was moving and working, and I am still in awe of it.
Because of my full-time job and now health benefits, I was able to get testing and procedures done to help find answers to some of my health problems. Because God was moving and working and because He worked when I didn’t feel like He was, I am on the road to answers and healing for my health.
If God wasn’t already doing enough, He had even more in store than I could imagine. God was preparing me for something I didn’t even dream of. About 2 months after stepping into a full-time role, my boss (the Minister of Missionary Care) resigned and moved into a new chapter God is writing for him. Not knowing what would come next with the ministry, I was asked to step into the role and lead out Missionary Care at Houston’s First Baptist Church. Huh?! God, this is more than I even prayed for! How good is He?! He provides what you need and what He sees best even if you didn’t know to pray for it.
I’m not saying that this is going to be everyone’s story, but I hope this part of my story is an encouragement to you. If you’re in a season of the impossible and wondering if things are going to change, you better believe that God is moving and working. He is working when it doesn’t seem like He is. He is working in the quiet. He is working in the chaos. He is always up to something. It might not always look like what you think. It might not always come in the way you would like. It might not always come in your timing. However, I can promise He IS working. He sees the beginning and the end. He is always writing your story — every chapter, every word, every letter, and every punctuation mark. Trust Him. Wait on His timing — even if it’s hard and sometimes torturous.
I challenge you to look back on your life and see where He was working. God’s hand is always evident in hindsight. Let your hindsight be a hope for the future. Let how God worked in your past give you peace that He is working and will continue to work.
Remember God placed every star in the sky. He cares for every sparrow. If He does that, He definitely cares for you. He loves you more than you will ever grasp. He knows every hair on your head and every freckle on your skin. His ways are higher. He is working and moving even if you can’t feel it.
reflections of a girl on mission. 